20yo | 167cm
| sw: 62.5kg | cw: ?? kg |
| 1̷g̷w̷:̷ ̷5̷3̷k̷g̷ | 2gw: 49kg | ugw: 47kg |
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you’ve gotta stat romanticizing your life. you gotta start believing that your morning commute is cute and fun, that every cup of coffee is the best you’ve ever had, that even the smallest and most mundane things are exciting and new. you have to, because that’s when you start truly living. that’s when you look forward to every day.
just think about how grateful your future self will be if you keep going. how glad you will be for having worked so hard. it will all be worth it.
does anyone else just feel the strong desire to change, to travel, to meet new people, to just start over somewhere you’ve never been before
- Chasing people who don’t want you
-Making up lots of stories and worlds
-Overtalking whenever there’s someone to talk to
-Excessive reading
-Daydreaming
-Clinging emotionally to others
-Being the ‘disposable’ friend in the group
-Excessive baths
-Talking to oneself
-Obsessive friendships
-Excessive helpfulness
thin-pumpkin
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theoretically, since I lost abt 2 lbs/week on my previous restriction, I can reach my UGW by October.
There are around 11 weeks between today and October 1st. So if I lose 2lbs every week x 11 weeks = 22lbs lost. I’ll be at 100 lbs by October. I’ll be skinny and beautiful for my birthday. I just need to keep restricting, stop binging and overeating.
I may Reblog this a lot, sorry? But it’ll keep me motivated? And maybe I’ll do updates!
I weighed in this morning (with a little bit of water) at 120.5 lbs (my scale only goes to half pounds so idk how accurate that is). Today I’m going out with some friends and we’re going to this noodle shop that i (used to) adore, so I’m going to try and estimate my calories, eat slowly, and not eat my whole portion. I had a banana (100 kcal) and some yogurt (70 kcal) for breakfast so I should be able to avoid snacking. I’ll also have a light dinner and maybe I’ll be able to stay under my calorie limit?? In any case I’m a pound down from yesterday, although I have no idea how. Unfortunately my period will start in around 3 days so I’ll be bloated and look even fatter and weigh even more than usual. I’ll be consuming mostly water.
119 this morning! (No idea how since yesterday I was over my kcal limit??) Going on a walk with my friend, but it’s Sunday so my mom always makes scones and bacon and I am basically forced to eat them since there’s no way I can make an excuse without worrying her. So I’ll eat them but then I’ll be restricting hardcore until dinner so hopefully I won’t gain.
118.5 this morning! Had oatmeal for breakfast and chugged like 16 oz of water before hand, so now my stomach is kind big and I look fatter than usual but my calorie intake should be alright! I’m sticking with small portions today and hoping I’ll lose some more.
118 this morning ☺️ having oatmeal for breakfast this morning but I’ll be chugging tea and water before hand. My lunch is like 75% cucumber so I should be good on calories, and I’ve got a long ass bike ride today so that will help too.
117 this morning?! I’m having omelet for breakfast tho so it’ll be a small portion for me 😓 lunch is more cucumbers and some beans and meat, so I’ll make sure my container is like 90% cucumber. I’m on my period so I feel bloated as fuck and not really like eating much anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I’m still 117 😭 at least I didn’t gain. I didn’t even binge or anything yesterday? It could be that my period is making me bloat. Anyway at least I’m a pound down from two days ago, so I’m kind of still on track. I’ll restrict hardcore today! God can’t I just get to 100 lbs please???
114.5 this morning! I’m so happy - I’m back down to my lowest weight, plus i hit a goal weight of 115 😍 today I’m going to try to stick to a breakfast under 200 kcal, and then a lunch of only veg and fruit if I can (if my dad will let me 🙄) and then dinner is always a wild card so I just hope it’s low cal and that I can eat a small portion. I’ve got 7 days to look hot for my family beach trip so….
114! Finally 😍 I know I haven’t updated in a while - sorry about that 😅 anyway I’ve pretty much been fluctuating around 114.5 for a week, so my goal is to come back from vacation at least 2lbs lighter. That probably won’t happen so I just hope I don’t gain… breakfast this morning was 10 strawberries (60 kcal), two 1 oz mandarin oranges (40 kcal for both), and a rice cake (60 kcal), plus 20 fl oz of water. For lunch I’m having a yogurt (70 kcal) and 10 cherries (50 kcal) for 120 kcal. I’ll have a nectarine for a snack if I need it (126 kcal). This should put me at 406 kcal for the day, plus dinner (which hopefully will include a fruit salad I can fill up most of my plate with?), and best case scenario dinner will be 400 kcal or under, putting me at 800 kcal for the day.
okay so I’m at 115 ish rn but. exciting update. So I used to be able to put my phone in the waistband of my yoga pants and it would be held up but nOW IT FALLS DOWN MY LEG.
114 this morning 💖 god I just need to get over this hump and get down to 110 (my next gw) 😭 my dad made me pasta with sausage and pesto so I ate that and a banana and a granola bar (originally that was all I was going to eat until dinner but then my dad gave me pasta and yeah)
dinner tonight is black cod with zucchini stir fry and rice I think??? (Fancy IK) so I’m going to do this to help keep it low cal:
1. The smallest ass bowl or plate you ever did see
2. Say I’m not hungry bc of the pasta
3. Fill the plate/bowl like 75% with zucchini
4. Rice? Bitch like 1 tbsp that shit is high in calories
5. I’ll ask for 1/3 of the smallest piece of fish.
I need to get past 114.
Oh and if I lose 2 pounds a week over the next 52 days (the days I have left to reach my UGW) I’ll lose ~15 lbs and be at 100 by October, but if I lose .5 lbs per day, which is hopefully what will happen, I’ll be at my UGW by October!!
Okay so the scale kept flickering between 114 and 113.5!! So I lost, but idk how much ☺️😓 I’m hoping to fast until 12:40 today and then eat a rice cake and some oranges, maybe some of the cherry tomatoes growing in my garden too 😍 then I’ll try and hold out until dinner, although I have left room in my calorie count for a piece of chocolate bc I’ve been craving it, but I’ll do my best not to eat it. It’s kind of a game I guess? Like how many days I can go before giving into my cravings? Anyway, down a fraction of a pound 💕 I’ve just got to stick to my calorie limit. No binges and I’ll be at 95 in no time! (I had a binge last night - I was washing dishes and I just literally started scraping dried rice out of the bottom of a pot? I didn’t eat that much before I managed to tear myself away and fill the bowl with soap and water but I still lost control 😓)
Wish me luck tomorrow when I weigh myself - I need to be 112 by tomorrow according to my weigh in schedule, so I’m behind, but as long as I keep losing at a steady pace I know I’ll get to 95 sometime in October, hopefully before my birthday.
112.5 today!! I forgot to log hitting 113, sorry 😓 but yeah 112.5 😚 how skinny I am in the morning is actually starting to look different than me at 124, thank god. 124 looked horrendous on me. But anyway, I’m actually around 2 days behind schedule, which is okay bc I gave myself around a week of wiggle room, but I still need to be down 17.5 by my birthday (aiming for 18.5-20 so my birthday binge doesn’t ruin my UGW) (yes I’m allowing myself to have whatever I want on my birthday - it’s disgusting, I know, sorry 😭 it’s just I know my dad will make me some huge bowl of ramen for breakfast bc he knows I love ramen, and there will probably be something else at lunch with a lot of calories, and family tradition is either to go to Red Robin or this lovely little authentic Italian place, so that will be a lot of calories, and then dessert… so I just don’t think I could manage it restricting😭)
BUT YEAH! anyway, 112.5 😍 I’m going to work out tonight and I already went on a walk today with my mom, so I should lose again tomorrow. Plus I passed 114 and held or lost for three days, so I get some nice fall scented bath and body works stuff like I promised myself 💕 also my love handles are almost gone 😍 I hope everyone has a good day and good luck on the scale tomorrow!
Hit 112 this morning!!! Marching band starts today and my lunch and breakfast come to around 400 kcal total, I’m bringing a mandarin orange as a snack if I need it though, so 435 ish is my max. That leaves me 400 for dinner if I want to make it an 800 kcal day 💕 I should lose a lot these next five days though bc marching band = lots of running around and very few snack opportunities. I’m excited! If I lose half a pound every day for the next five days, I’ll be at 109.5 on Saturday!
111.5!! I’m so close to my next gw of 110 😍 I’m having oatmeal for breakfast, and then my cucumber/tomato mix with some meat sauce for lunch. No idea what dinner will be but I have around 400-350 kcal left for dinner so I should be fine. I really hope I can get to 109.5 by Saturday! Once I got over the hump that was 114 I just seem to be doing well 💕 also if I’m 109.5 by Saturday I’ll finally be caught up with my weigh in schedule 😍 good luck to everyone on the scale 😘
111 oh my god 😍 just one pound away from my goal weight and only 16 pounds from my UGW!! Doing my best to aim for 800 today so hopefully I can lose a pound over night? Probably won’t happen but I still hope it will! Breakfast is a poached egg and a slice of toast, lunch is cucumber tomato salad with a meat/bean sauce, like yesterday, and idk what dinner will be. Tommorow’s lunch may be the same cucumber tomato thing or it may be a cous cous dish I made last night? Also I’ve won drill down in marching band (basically you have to stand in marching formation and the drum major gives you commands and you have to do them at the right speed and following the correct rules (which can get complicated) and they’ll try to trick you into moving when you aren’t supposed to and all that. And yeah if you mess up you’re out. I think we stopped with 7 winners yesterday? Out of around 80 people? Yeah it was fun! Okay anyway, I hope I’ll be at 110 or 110.5 tomorrow! Good luck to everyone 😘
110.5 😘 (August 16, 2018) having oatmeal for breakfast and my cucumber-tomato dish for lunch, no idea what’s for dinner though lol. Should be able to do 800 today if dinner is low/medium cal! School is going to start on the 29th of August for me so I should be at 106 then if I follow my weigh-in schedule! And I’ll be in time with my weigh in schedule tomorrow if I hit 110 💕 110 is due 8/17, 109 is due 8/20, etc etc basically I need to lose a third of a pound every day in order to reach my UGW by October 1. I hope I can do it! I’ve only got 15.5 lbs to go ☺️ good luck to everyone 😊😚💖
110!! I was 110 yesterday too though (forgot to log it on this post) so I didn’t really lose enough to be 109.5 😭 it could be water weight? Anyway I’m trying for 800 today so breakfast is a banana and a piece of toast (215 kcal), no idea what lunch will be, but if I’m in control I’ll have a bell pepper (37 kcal), and 10 cherries (50 kcal). That leaves me around 500 kcal for dinner. I’m also going to try to run on the treadmill tonight or get a friend to go for a run with me for at least a mile.
What happened yesterday: we went back to school shopping (like for supplies) and I bought this adorable little bowl with dinosaurs on it bc it was a kid’s breakfast bowl, so it was smaller, aka…. my dad can’t feed me as much in it!! Also I tried on some size 0 jeans and they fit???!! Idk I mean that brand runs big so a 2 is probably my size atm but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ my dad also said we could make vegetable soup for the first week of school’s lunch and I’m just?? Yes?? 800 might be feasible for those days now!!
109 or 108.5 holy shit!!! I’m ahead of schedule bc 109 was actually due tomorrow!! ah I’m so happy 😍 I’ll post a body check soon I think?
I told my parents I’d already eaten so no breakfast for me - just water and tea :) (which means I have 400 kcal for lunch and for dinner 😍) now I’m going to visit my grandma who cooks really healthy and always has fruit for dessert (it’s an Asian thing)! I’m so happy and excited 😚 today is a good day 🌸 have a wonderful day, everybody! 🌟✨💖
108! I had an English muffin and 10 cherries for breakfast (186 kcal) and for lunch I’m planning on the last slice of pizza (290 kcal if it’s from a 12 inch - I’ll have to measure it before I eat it to know for sure). That leaves me with 300 kcal for dinner! My day is all planned out with stuff to do since school is coming up, meaning I’ll have no time to snack!
Also: I am ahead of my weigh in schedule by 3 days! 108 is actually due the 23, and 109 was due today! Hopefully I’ll continue being ahead! I’ll be putting a body check up later today - it’s kinda awkward bc there’s no real good place in my house for body checks but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . I’ll include my measurements too :)
Good luck everyone and have a great day 💖💕
107.5! I’m scared I won’t maintain this though? My dad is making breakfast and it’s green onion pancakes which are really high in calories 😓 I’m only going to have one and then I’ll keep lunch low cal or not have any lunch and then dinner will be okay?? I just really hope I’ll be 107.5 tomorrow or 107! I’m still ahead of schedule bc 108 was actually what was due for today’s weigh in but I want to stay ahead of schedule - that way if I plateau or anything I’ll have a little safety net 💖 August 23rd 2018
September 12 2018
I hit 106.5!! The scale actually flickered between 106 and 106.5 but I don’t want to disappoint myself if I’m 106.5 tomorrow or smth and idk my scale is weird so!! 106.5!! I broke my plateau and I’m almost at my next gw of 105!! Good luck everyone and I hope I keep losing tomorrow!! And also I’ve decided that I’m going to start varying my calorie limit so that my metabolism doesn’t settle?? Like I’ll alternate between 800, 1000, and 1200 days?? Anyway good luck and I pray I’m 106 or 105.5 tomorrow 💕☺️ (Also i think the reason I’ve started losing again is bc I let myself binge and it jump started my metabolism??? So if I plateau again I think I’ll try a huge binge and then a fast immediately after, and then hard restriction to 800?? But yeah good luck to everyone trying to lose/restrict/recover/whatever you’re doing! And I’ll hopefully be back with another update soon! Only 11.5 lbs to go!!! 😚💖🌟 (and it’s fall and it’s amazing and I’m going to bake low cal donuts or bagels this weekend!!)
106!! Yes!! (And actually the scale flickered between 106 and 105.5 so ;)) thank god I finally got over my plateau of 108!! I’m so excited like I’m actually losing weight at a good pace again! And it was all because of a planed crazy ass binge where I consumed god knows how many calories, and then fasted for ~17 hours immediately after (I was going for 20-24 but my family foiled my plans lol) so if you binge!! Don’t freak out!! Just go back to restricting 💕☺️ good luck to everyone and I hope to be back tomorrow with another update! 😚💖 September 13 2018
September 14 2018 🌟🍁🍂
105.5 oh my god!! I’m half a pound from my next gw oh I’m so excited!! I’ve been restricting really well and I’m so happy it’s working! I think I should keep dropping weight like this for a while but if it slows down a lot I’m going to wait until a Friday, binge on that Friday, and then fast as long as I can on that Saturday, which is what I did to kickstart my metabolism this time and it helped so much!! Like I had been stuck at 108 ish for all of September and part of August and now I’m smashing through all of that! I only have 10.5 lbs to go before I hit my UGW! And I’ve lost 20 lbs now! Ah progress feels so good 💕💖 and it’s fall and I adore fall and ugh yes life is just. life is good right now, dare I say it. 🍂🍁🌟 good luck to everyone trying to lose or recover or whatever in between stage you’re in! I hope I can come back tomorrow with another update! 😚💖🌟
September 15 2018 🍄🍂🎃
105 lbs!! I’m finally at here!! Only 10 lbs to go, so if I keep losing at .5 lbs per day, only 20 days to go, and between now and my birthday there’s 22 days!! I can make it! And hopefully I’ll be able to lose a bit more so I have a cushion against my birthday binge?? I’m so excited aajwjwsk like my metabolism is the real mvp rn thank you bud you’re killing it!! I lowkey binged yesterday but I also ran like 1.5 miles and walked another .75 so that plus some body weight exercises must’ve been enough to keep me from gaining! 🍂🍄🎃 alright, good luck to everyone, no matter what stage you’re in! I hope I can give you guys another update tomorrow! ☺️💕✨
September 16 2018 🦌🍂🦔
a lot of you are asking how many calories I have every day - it’s 800! But lately I’ve been trying to slowly increase it bc I need some wiggle room since my dad bought me a bunch of snacks and I’ll probably have to eat them in front of him and yeah… and bc of that binge that jumpstarted my metabolism I’ve been able to lose consistently, so changing my kcal intake during that period seemed the safest.
Anyway!!! I hit 104.5!! Guess who’s finally getting skinnier! Only 9.5 lbs left until I hit 95 🍂 also I’ve decided that a food I want to binge on for my birthday is frosted animal crackers??? I love them ok?? And today I’m going to try to be productive and do all my homework and get ahead for my AP classes lol. Also maybe I’ll go for a run or a walk before my usual bodyweight workout?my mom made cinnamon rolls and I’ve calculated the calories but I still need to burn some off, you know? 🍁
if my metabolism slows down and it seems like I’m losing slower again, I have some opportunities to speed it up: every Tuesday I tutor in Spanish for the JV football team, and there’s pizza (this option makes me nervous tho bc like. I wouldn’t be able to fast Wednesday bc my dad makes breakfast?? And what if he made something high-cal and lunch and dinner were high-cal??? I mean I could always pack a container and bring the pizza home and save it for Friday??) or i could do a Friday binge and Saturday fast.
🦔 good luck to everyone, whatever stage you’re in! Hopefully I can come back tomorrow with another update! 🦌🍂🦔 😚
